There are several things I feel like people should know about living with diabetes. But, when it really comes down to it, the one thing I want people to know is...living with diabetes is harder than you can ever imagine. Managing this disease takes time and strength. Some days I don't have the time or strength. Diabetes doesn't go away, I can't push it aside and forget about it. It is emotionally draining. It is always there in my thoughts, no matter what I am doing. I think about it when I exercise, eat, sleep, and even when I am relaxing. Sometimes it keeps me from doing things I love. It creates anxiety when I plan trips, outings, meals, and holidays. When I am invited to a party or a get-together, concert, show, game, etc....my first thought is what is there going to be for me to eat, should I bring my own food, what is my blood sugar doing? What if there is not anything I can eat....what if my blood sugar drops low, what if it goes high? Diabetes creates a constant chatter in my thoughts, one that I can never turn off.
Multitasking is now my forte. Math is my best friend (even though I am not all that good at it!). Every minute of every day diabetes is in my thoughts. It has to be, I wish I could take it all away but I can't. That said, the truth is that eating, drinking, and sleeping diabetes means I am living with diabetes and being alive and staying alive makes me happy.